How It Started

This is just a short version of how i became a self-harmer.

I started self-harming when i was about 12, the night my dad left my mum and us, his family. I'm 19 now (almost 20) my sisters 18 & 20 and my brother 16, it was difficult for all of us but it felt worse to me because i was very close to my dad and never thought he would do something like this to us. I guess that's what everyone thinks about their parents that they will never separate/divorce, it might happen to others but not them and then it does.

My way of describing how i felt at the time would be that it was like my world had fallen apart and then i found a way to escape that feeling and many other feelings that i was having at the time. The main thoughts were always why is he doing this?, why did he walk away from us?, didn't he love us?. We found out a little while later that he was cheating, there was another woman who he wanted to be with. He thought it would be a good idea to tell us about the woman after a trip we had, it was a bad ending to a good day.

So that added to the hurt i was already feeling and i self-harmed more and it got worse as the years went on.